the start of a new chapter in this journey.. it's so different i dunno wad to feel.. im excited but yet at the same time lost.. but i know i can be secure in His hands.. just that sometimes when i look at situations i get discouraged.. like wad's wrong with me?!! this shldnt be how i look at things! why am i looking at situations to determine my faith!? shldn't i fix my eyes on Jesus? the author and perfecter of my faith? so many things i know but i just aint doin'.. argh just move on la luannie.. just move on..
i have a sudden urge to walk along ngee ann city..
this year is really a fast year.. and so much has happened.. and im amazed at how God has pulled me thru everything.. come to think of it, it's really quite a tough year.. but i really enjoyed it as well. and in this memory lane i see many faces, some of which i meet very often and a few i almost forgot abt and still others i miss.. and.. im just wondering how they are doing now..
just did some shopping! it's been so long since i last shopped.. i saw this really nice specs!! but it's $200.. shld i? oh wells.. i need a haircut badly.. my hair is so limp and outta shape.. but i oso need to study leh.. how!!? hmm since im meeting wynnie tmr shld i just sun bian go for a haircut? or MAYBE i shld leave it long and perm it.. WAHAHAHA. mrs maggie mee!
it's back to the same thing again.. im always stuck at this stage.. when will i ever move on.. it gets so frustrating sometimes.. but i just dunno how to counter it.. whie liddat... huat to do.. even when things look so hopeful, there's still this tinge of disbelieve.. wad is wrong!?!! argh irritating. and speaking abt irritating.. i think im getting more irritating nowadays.. im so disgusted with myself sometimes..
had national track and field just now.. aint double champ animore but i really think sn did well! =) yea! good job! *thumbs up*

having maths test tmr.. and i just started studying.. *raises eyebrow at questions* goodness.. and the talk abt o's on the train made me so stressed up.. *pulls hair* speaking abt hair.. i realise i've been losing more hair than usual.. im gonna be bald!!! *cries* argghh.. shld i declare a 4-day work week this week?? i dunno if i can make it through this week.. *moans and groans*
oh no.. i shld've known better than to drink coffee at 10pm at night.. and now at 12.15am im so awake.. *runs around trying to tire myself out..*
had a great time with yushan and guihao today at pizza hut!! wahahaha.. feast out with them after school. guess wad man.. the student meal is only 5.90! but why the person charged me so much ar.. hmm.. *ponders* ahh it shld be right la.. aniwae was really tired today.. like always.. i fell asleep on my way home and i nearly spring off the bus at the wrong stop.. thank goodness i stay put saving myself from malu-ation..

aniwae we did survey on this 2 punggol girls.. and praise God they seem pretty responsive!! im just so excited abt wad god's gonna do in this grp..! and it's gonna take lotsa hard work.. *wipes sweat off forehead*

having a maths test tmr.. and so many other tests the next day and the next and the next and AHHH!!! i shall declare a 4-day work week this week!! its a nice way of saying im gonna not go school.. BWAHAHA.. ok no im just kiddin!! *rush off to study*
"I beat my body and make it my slave.." [1corinthians 9:27a] i really really have to discipline myself even more man.. *whips body* i want to do it whether i feel like it anot.. i have to and i want to.. i cant go on liddat ani longer..
it's really great to spend time with the family of God!! northeast had our very own bbq today!! really enjoyed it though we [fried food <--grp name] lost.. but it's ok!! the food is great!!! er some are uncooked la.. but im still alive and kicking so.. wahahhahaha! and and and oh ya! praise God! bernadette joined us for bbq too!! *grins widely* really glad to see her join us man! really wanna welcome liting and bernadette into this family of God!! *claps* hurhur.
im back from a crazy time with xiuhui and jewell studying.. me and hui studied at amk library but i ended up counting how many teeth she has.. wahhaha!! and then suddenly jewell appeared beside me.. then we studied and eat and eat and eat and study. [notice ratio of eat : study] xiuhui thinks that her fruit tree fresh bottles looks like puaylin so i drew a face on the bottle.. we continued to study and we went off for dinner at 5.30.. after dinner we went macs to eat again and jewell added hair to xiuhui's bottle.. ahh this is nuts.. but nvm it's good to spend some spastic time with them..
wow.. it's 3.12am.. and im here accumulating urea.. im so hot and sticky.. and stinky.. i need to bath again..! but my sweat has got me stuck to my leathery chair.. and if i bath my hair will be wet.. then i'd have to use hair dryer which will not only spoil my hair but also make me hot again.. which then defeats the whole purpose of bathing..! hmm.. i think i will eat instead. :DD
it's been a really long week.. although it's only 4 days in school.. but aniwae im realllllllllyy happy cos it's over! the weekend's here! and also i made it through! without pon-ing school or slacking.. it's really been very fruitful. =))
argh my mouse is spoiled.. i cant scroll.. not only that.. today i was waiting for the bus and when finally my bus came it just drove pass me.. and drove off without me when im just standing right in front of it.. am i so insignificant!?!! and on my journey home.. both buses i board took sooooooooo long to come and sooooooo long to travel i reached home without dinner.. and now im hungry!! *wails and throws arms into the air* whie liddat!?!

*clasp hands and pray* let me grow in my faith and trust in you..
was just looking at some profiles.. and many faces flash by.. it reminded me so much of the past.. and im just grateful that throughout all these happenings God still held on to me tightly.. and i pray that nth will get btw us..
*panics* today is the last day of the long weekend.. *groans* so many things left undone.. argh.. discipline discipline!
went clubbing today. hahaa wasnt tt shocking?! but aniwae i went clubbing.. but it's cos there was free flow of drinks for those who went for the milkrun. it's amazingly dark inside.. i thot i was gonna trip or sth.. wenta dance and had a soft drink.. saw lotsa stuff there mann.. pple bouncing their organs with the beat and against each other.. hmm. and i have ta say it makes u wanna go again.. and i guess this is the kinda temptation we'd probably face in 2 years time.. *takes in a deep breath* everything is permissable but not everything is beneficial.
*grins!* i just called 2 contacts! and so amazingly both are responsive! oh God.. i really pray that they'll be the ones!! the st nicks one has agreed to meet me tmr for me to pass her something.. XD and the punggol one oso agreed to meet me for me to pass her sth! hahas.. and it's only the 1st time i called them! must be God mann
*grins!* i just called 2 contacts! and so amazingly both are responsive! oh God.. i really pray that they'll be the ones!!